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Much Better…

February 28, 2009 starshine1 1 comment

My past two posts have been pretty bitter.  I admit I cringed a little when I re-read them.  I’m feeling much better now.  I don’t know why, because honestly nothing has changed, but I guess I’m just putting it in perspective.

So, most of my bitter,  hard feelings stemmed from my conflicting feelings, and the list of let downs concerning a person.  It still hurts.  But I guess there are other people out there…and I’m committed to finding mine.

Seriously.  I’ve been single for what…ever?

Anyway the point is I’m feeling pretty good now…not 100%, but good…decent.  Thanks to my friends, and tasks that need to be completed, which are taking over most of my focus.  Also God.  I went to church on Ash Weds.  I gave up alcohol for Lent.  I’m focusing on me, and what I need emotionally which is something I ignore alot, especially when I like someone and I think what should I do so they like me, what does he want?…etc.

Instead its like this:  I’m already awesome enough to be cared about.  So the question is: What can you do to get me?

I know: Get me a pizza and some orange juice…I’m starving.

Forever Young and Pygmalion Begins.

September 17, 2008 starshine1 Leave a comment

So as many of my friends know I’m staying 21.  I have aged for the last time.  I realized I might as well stay 21 forever.  First off, I still get carded at the movies, for buying white-out, lottery tickets, pretty much anywhere you’re required to be over 17, 18, or 21.  A guy at the bars asked if I was 16, and said he would promise not to tell anyone I was in high school, if I made out with him…gross.  I passed.  One of my now guy friends admitted he was initially attracted to me when we first met, but he thought I was someone’s little sister and didn’t want to go to jail.  I also took this test that tells you your real age based on your lifestyle, and medical history.  I got 15.5 years old.  When I volunteered for my little sister at camp as a counselor, the other counselors thought I was an 11 year old camper for two days.  I got in trouble at my job at Robeson Elementary for being in the hall without a pass, the school only goes up to 5th grade.  Lastly, and this is the icing on the cake, at my little sister’s 7th grade recognition banquet two 12-13 year old boys hit on me, i.e. one brushed his hand across my face and told me how cute I was, and asked “how come I never see you at school?”  My response  “Maybe because I’m in college, and don’t ever touch me again…thanks.”  So I guess I’ll turn 22 in like 7 years…sweet.  I mean at first it did bother me, especially since it is more difficult for me to attract men rather than children.  Most men are either repulsed or afraid of any attraction they might have.  I don’t do well at bars, unless I approach and establish my adult-ness, and I’m shy so that’s hard sometimes.  But I realized its ok, because when I’m 45 I’ll look 18, like my mom does now.  I mean its not THAT bad.  I have met a decent share of hot freshmen this semester, one looked like Jesse McCartney, and I’m not complaining he plays guitar too.  Then there’s the kid in my theater class…hmmm.  Still, a guy my own age would be great too, like one of the 2.5 guys I really am seriously crushing on right now, they’re around 21-22.  (Yes, 2.5 one I’m not sure of yet.  I’m half sure.)

But its also fun to be a kid forever.  I get people to feel sorry for me all the time, when I play to how old I look.  When I was in Chicago, the restaurant I ate at thought I was a kid alone, and charged me for half of the meal, and gave me free root beer (cuz you know you get charged for every bottle you order).  I work with kids alot, so they trust me more since even they mistake me for one of them sometimes, and its easier to teach and encourage a child when they really know you’re on their side.  I get along great with kids, and people wonder how I tolerate them so well, I think its because they tolerate me better than average adults, I’m not imposing, but I do establish the respect factor, and I’m fun.  I dunno appearing as a child to world still helps me alot in different ways so I’m not ready to be all grown up in all situations.

But, tonight (until Sat)…I will be at least 18.  Since its the first night of Pygmalion and I’m heading over to Canopy club in a few hours.  Oh the bands.  I don’t know where to begin.  I’m so excited.  This is my first year going.  My editor at Buzz is actually in one of the bands with this kid from my French class.  Also…I just love music, and there’s going to be so much almost non-stop, but since I am sick and I will need to rest I’ll have to take breaks.

Did you know my job sent me home today?  When I told them what I had they all freaked out.  Thanks, for making me feel like a leper folks.  Anyways, I’ll post about the shows, since I’ll be writing about some of them for the paper anyway.

CIAO MIEI AMICI!!!

WTF!?! and Why I Hate Spain

September 16, 2008 starshine1 Leave a comment

Last night I was settling into bed after a stressful day of school and work, and my neck was killing me.  I figured it was from dance, since I’ve been working on some ballet choreography for one of my classes.  At like 3am my neck and my upper back are raging in pain, and the slightest touch is excruciating, also I can’t swallow for my life.  I of course call Dr. Mom.  Who tells me to go to the doctor.  Which I hate doing, because I always feel that they just diagnose me with something I already fiqured out, but I need them to write the script.  But this time I was perplexed.  I was having a very WTF? moment.  Well I went to the Doctor’s and guess what!  I have Shingles, and it may already be infecting my spine and my brain!!!  When the doctor told me that, I really had a WTF? moment.  How did I go from being absoultely fine to f***ing SHINGLES?  (Btw, shingles is an infection of the herpes zoster virus, its not THE Herpes you’re thinking.  I haven’t even had sex yet people, it would be really F***ed up if I got herpes before I even had sex. I’m as clean as a Jonas Brother!)  So I have to monitor myself and go back in to the doc’s tomorrow.  The pain is already increasing in my spine, UGH this sucks, and I have so much to do!  Also this Weds is the first day of Pygmalion Music Festival, thats freaking tomorrow!!!  And I’m sick!  Another thing that sucks is getting you’re blood drawn.  The nurse lady literally FISHED around in my freaking left arm for a vein!  Then finally went to my right arm to try again, and was like “Oh, I should have started over here! haha!”  I wanted to puke, I felt so sick and dizzy, and I could smell the blood.  Its only my own blood that makes me sick.  I have no problems sticking other people, cutting up cadavers, and watching live surgery up close which I got to do at Alexian Brothers Hospital last summer.  Yeah, I got the hook-up with my grandma’s Cardio Surgeon, he’s really cool.  But No one makes me bleed my own blood…no one!

Which is why I hate Spain.  Ok, that’s not really why, they haven’t made me bleed or anything.  Still I hate them for taking James Augustine from the Orlando Magic.  Which means I also hate Orlando, Florida for sending James over there.  Yes, my favorite basketball player (aka the love of my life), who does not get enough credit or props has been offically sent to FREAKING SPAIN!!!!  So when Night of Ledgends came around this past Sat. guess who was not there!  JAMES!!  When all the basketball players went to Soma afterwards, guess who wasn’t there again!  JAMES!!  When I got hit on by a basketball player, guess who it was not!!!  JAMES!!!  Thank you Spain for being stupid, speaking spanish, and taking the best person (besides Robert Carmine, omg I love him) in America out of America.  James Augustine.  That’s why I support ITALIA in all Calcio (that’s soccer for all you non-Italian speakers) games. ::muttering:: stinking flan eating, Federer supporting, basketball star stealing…

P.S.  Dear Spain,

Please send James back.  You don’t really like basketball anyways.  I’m sorry I said you eat flan, I think its gross too.  You just should have said no when Orlando offered him over to you.  I guess its really Orlando’s fault, but they have Disney World so I can’t really hate them, and I’m an American, plus I like Italia better anyway.  I guess I’ll have to learn Spanish and move over there, and you think I’m kidding.  I will be court side…watch.

James Augustine playing for C.B. Gran Canaria

James Augustine playing for C.B. Gran Canaria